my talks

KYUNN??? Achanak kahan se roshni bankar aap aaye ho.. Andheron mai chaandani bankar chaaye ho.. Bhool chuki thi mai to rango or baharoon ko… Naa jaane kahan se..meri hansi.. Fir dhoondh laaye ho.. Banjar is dil ko barsaat ki na aas thi na.. Zarurat.. Na jaane kahan se saawan bula laaye ho.. Waadon or mohabbato par se tut chuka hai mera bharosa. Fir se yakeen dilane kyun aaye ho.. Dhoka khaya hai kai baar.. Chot lagi hai bahut baar.. Ab or dum anhi hai mujmein.. Kyun aap fir unhi dard bhari yaadon mai Waapis le aaye ho….. Kaanp uthta hai mera har zarra.. Anzaam-e-preet k khayaal se bhi.. Bhooli hui us mohabbat ki kahaani ko Fir se kyun dohraane aaye ho…….[9-6-09][12:22 a.m.]

FIRST MEETING... na geheno se na kaajal se na haar se na singaar se.. sajni sajegi sirf saajan ki preet se….. na naini mai kajra hoga.. na kalaai mai kangana.. na hina na laali.. na gajra..na paraandi… na pajeb na baali.. sirf priyatam ke rang mai rangi.. vo miluegi unse.. unka khwaab bankar.. aankhon mai chamkega sirf unka aks.. kangn banegi anguliyaan.. greeva sajegi saajan ki baahon k haar se… khankati hansi chankegi pajeb se… har singaar saajan ki preet se hoga.. mukh pe darp hoga.. chaal mai dambhh hoga.. jab hogi pratam bhent sajni ki saajan se…... rashq hoga jahan ko ishq nikhrega yun.. irshiya se bhar uthega asmaan.. kuch yun chalkega… prem sajni ke yaouwan roop se… nikhar uthega tan.. bhar uthega mann chalak uthegi roop ki gaagar jab hogi prahtam bhent saajan ki sajni se…… yaadgaar hoga vo pal.. jab sitaaron ki gawaahi mai.. chaand ki roshni mai mridu komal ehsaason ko. Lagaye hue seene se.. Ghat ti badhti dhadkano ko Thaame.. Milegi sajni apne saajan se…[23-7-09]

Why people keep coming back! Please! I am begging Stop hurting me I can’t take this pain any more, What the hell you ,people think Of me , What am i… A bus stand,a hotel,waiting room Or House on rent… Please!i am not a non living Temporary place of residence, I am a warm blooded human being With flesh and bones …with beats And breathing… And it really hurts when.. People I love treat me..like A farm house which They can visit once in a vacation. I’m not someone’s personal property .got dammit! I’m a person with feelings and emotions.. And my eyes do bleed.. When the dagger of negligence is.. Hit deeply.. Yes! I don’t want you people to keep coming back. Decide it in one stance.. Either love me or leave me.. No need to bear me….when You don’t want me. Please!this isn’t a five star hotel Owned by someone’s dad! In which one can check in on a Saturday and check out on Monday. This is my LIFE! got dammit! And..you have only one choice.. Leave m